Monday, 15 December 2014

Alfatihah


Hanya doa dikirimkan. Moga arwah ditempatkan di tempat orang-orang yang dikasihi. Arwah adalah insan yang baik.  Kenal dalam YM dan sempat berjumpa sekali dengan arwah dan isterinya. Kemudian lost contact. 2006 sebulan sebelum dia meninggal jumpa balik dalam YM, dan sempat berborak dalam telefon. Dia cerita pasal hidup dia rumahtangga dia. Banyak sangat dugaan bila berkahwin dengan anak orang ada2 ni dia kata.Memang sedih bila dia bercerita pasal kisah ni. Dugaan.  Sedih arwah bila terpaksa berpisah dengan anaknya. Kemudian dapat tau dia arwah dimasukkan ke ICU akibat heart attack dan akhirnya dia pergi juga.

Motif...jodoh maut adalah kuasa Allah. Jadi jika termaktub dengan si polan dari golongan marhean ini yang menjadi isteri/suami anak kita maka janganlah dipertikai, dihina dsbnya. Kena redha dan bersyukur kerana bila sampai masa hanya amalan kita saja yang kita bawa !!

Saturday, 1 November 2014

Apa yang dicari

Diam-diam aku menangis. Bukan kerana sedih atau kerana ditinggal suami yang jauh dimata kerana mencari rezeki. Tapi aku menangis kerana aku letih. Mengurus 6 orang anak sendirian bukan benda yang mudah. Letih. Aku menangis dan stress kerana aku letih. Jangan kaitkan dengan jihad, pengorbanan dosa dan pahala. Tapi ini berkaitan dengan emosi. Bila kau kena buat semua kerja yang sepatutnya sudah dibahagi 2 apa kau rasa? 

Tanya pada diri sendiri apa yang dicari dalam hidup ini. Aku masih goyang nak buat keputusan nak ikut suami berhijrah. Allah yang tau apa yang tersirat dalam hati. Normal aku berperasaan sedemikian kerana aku cuma insan biasa. Bila aku hayati dan aku renung, apabila usia akan menginjak ke tangga 40, aku sudah tidak hadap apa2 lagi. Cukup dapat melihat anak2 membesar jadi insan yang berguna dunia dan akhirat. Baik aku akan jadi seorang pendidik selepas ini. Mendidik anak dari rumah. Karier baru. Fulltime, Kalau sebelum ini tugas sebagai pendidik sekadar partime sekarang tidak lagi. Pohon supaya rezeki dimurahkan agar cukup makan pakai kami anak beranak, dapat bayar hutang dan selebihnya dapat bersedekah. InshaAllah amin ya rabbal alamin. 

Pause. Yang lagi utama harus aku berada disisi suami. Kerana disitu tempat aku. Dan takkan aku bnak berpaling jauh dari orang yang sudah kembali ke pangkal jalan, yang kembali taat padaNYA? 

Monday, 20 October 2014

Checklist


Checklist lah sangat kan!!!

Yang 500 x 6 bulan tu harap jadi kenyataan. Boleh beli perabot baru. Tengok belum terkumpul dah berangan. Ya lah rasa sayang nak jual barang-barang kat sini. Nak beli bukan senang. Walaupun masa beli tu barang sekehen ja ..hotel buat lelong. Sekali dapat bonus sekali beli barang haha. Tapi tengoklah kalau kos nak bawa balik tu melebih-lebih baik lelong ja kan. lagi pun iols tak ada lah barang banyak. Paling sayang nak jual dining table sebab permukaan tu tempered glass. Susah nak dapat. 

Bab cari rumah tu serah pada Pak Atan. Lagipun dia bagi tau future boss dia tolong cari rumah juga. Ok yang penting nak dalam area Taiping.  

Yang lain tu biasalah. Nak beli pinggan, mangkuk, kuali baru. Macam kalau masak dalam kuali baru lagi sedap haha.  Tapi biasalah perempuan semua nak baru. Ya lah tak bercadang pun nak bawa kuali2 antik yang dah tak larat nak tonyoh bagi putih gebu. Kita beli yang baru sajalah :)

Dalam excited ada yang tak excited.Risau juga sebab memikir nak kesana lepas tu dengan fulltime nak jadi house wife wooooo a bit scary. Ya lah pindah tempat baru tak kenal orang takkan nak hantar Che Nah senang2 bagi orang jaga. Hati budi dia kita tak kenal ..ooo no no...

Tak apa lah nanti kita jual ja la goreng pisang cheesee kasi leleh kat depan rumah..jadilah kot2 hujung bulan boleh juga pi shopping di Taiping Mall :))

pst: mesti ingat dan yakin ada hikmah yang terbaik disebalik semua ni sebab tu DIA lorongkan rezeki ni pada kami.

Wednesday, 15 October 2014

Must watch :The Blind Side




Movies ni harus ditonton. Terbaik. Sebab tu Sandra Bullock menang sebagai pelakon terbaik.  Sob-sob juga aku masa tengok movies ni. 
Aku copypaste sajalah synopsis nya yer. 

  • 17-year-old Michael Oher (Quinton Aaron) is talking to an investigator for the NCAA Michael ask the investigator if he can leave but said no..
    Flashback: Michael has been in foster care with different families in Memphis, Tennessee, due to his mother's drug addiction. Every time he is placed in a new home, he runs away. His friend's father, on whose couch Mike had been sleeping, asks Burt Cotton (Ray McKinnon), the coach of Wingate Christian School, to help enroll his son and Mike. Impressed by Mike's size and athleticism, Cotton gets him admitted despite a poor academic record. Michael walks out of school when he says hi to some children and they leave. Soon Michael is befriended by a boy named Sean Jr. (SJ) He suggests that he smiles at them knowing that he is trying to be friendly to them (Jae Head). SJ's mother Leigh Anne Tuohy (Sandra Bullock) is a strong-minded interior designer and the wife of wealthy businessman Sean Tuohy (Tim McGraw) Leigh Anne notice Michael and ask SJ who is he is and respond he is big Mike
    After the a school staff tell Michael that his Father passed away leaving Michael homeless, Michael seeks shelter at a laundrette.
    Later Leigh Anne, SJ and Sean watch their daughter, Collins (Lily Collins) playing volley ball later Sean notice Michael picking up some left over food at ,the bench Michael, having no money for food, lives by scrounging half-empty containers of snacks after school games, which Mr. Tuohy notices, after which he pays for a meal ticket for the boy.
    One night, Leigh Anne notices Michael walking on the road, shivering in the cold; when she learns he intends to spend the night huddled outside the school gym. When they drive away, Leigh Anne tells Sean to turn the car around and she sees and tells Michael that the gym was closed. She ask why he going to the gym and he responds that it was warm. She asks if he got somewhere to live, Michael simply says yes, But Leigh asks Michael not lie to her and then offers him a place to stay and sleep at her house. Michael accepts and gets in the car arriving at the Tuohy house Leigh Anne set a blanket a pillow use on the couch later when going to sleep Sean ask Leigh Anne if it just going let him one night and Leigh Anne unsure about it.
    The next morning, Leigh Anne notice that Michael was gone and sees Michael leaving, she asks him to spend the Thanksgiving holiday with her family. Slowly, Michael becomes a member of the Tuohy family. Later that day, Leigh Anne drives Michael to his Mother's house. Leigh Anne is about to leave the car when Michael suddenly and urgently insists on her to stay in the car. He heads to his mother's apartment, where all is found is an eviction notice. He returns to the car when Leigh Anne asks a question to Michael, but remains silent. Leigh Anne requests that Michael tells her one thing about himself, and he responds by saying that he does not like being called Big Mike. Leigh Anne then decides that he will only be addressed as Michael. Later, Leigh Anne goes to buy clothes for Michael. Michael picks the clothes he want to wear and Leigh Anne purchases it for him. When Leigh Anne seeks to become Michael's legal guardian, she learns he was separated from his drug-addict mother when he was seven and that no one knows her whereabouts. She is also told that, although he has scored low in a career aptitude test, he is in the 98th percentile in "protective instincts".
    Leigh Anne will use that to explain to him how to play in the field. Up to that moment, he wasn't able to get the hang of the game and its rules, and he wasn't able to understand what his role on the field was.
    From that moment, Michael starts to play well and be useful to his team. At the traditional Christmas card photograph of that year, Leigh Anne invites him to appear in the family photo. Leigh Anne's friends Beth (Rhoda Griffs), Elaine (Eaddy Mays) and Sherry (Ashley LeConte Campbell) meet regularly at a local expensive restaurant. The friends laugh about Leigh Anne's "project in the projects," but she cuts them off, saying that if they don't respect what she does, she will stop seeing them.
    An opportunity arises for Michael to play at university level. However, he needs his grades to improve, so the Tuohys hire a private tuition teacher, outspoken and kind Miss Sue (Kathy Bates), who is determined to succeed, because she, like Mrs. Tuohy, wants him to play for Ole Miss. During their Geography lesson, she makes a remark about University of Tennessee burying the body parts of dead people under their football field, which Michael seems to believe blindly. While he had been leaning toward Tennessee, this event decides him ultimately to sign on with Ole Miss.
    There comes a moment when Leigh Anne wants to have a face-to-face conversation with Michael's mother (Adriane Lenox) to enable her to adopt Michael. Although she seems unresponsive in the beginning, the mother finally wishes Michael the best. She says that social services had branded Michael "a runner," and she forecasts that Leigh Anne will find one day that he has run away for good without giving any previous notice. Leigh Anne also faces some tough guys from the projects who had made ugly insinuations about her before. They are left speechless when she threatens them and is not afraid of them at all.
    Many universities want Michael to play on their teams. Sean talks to the coaches, and leads the negotiations on Michael's behalf-- and his own. When Michael gets his grades high enough, he must make a decision, and he does. He chooses the university for which Sean had played, and where Leigh Anne had been a cheerleader. That causes Investigator Granger (Sharon Morris) to look into the matter before Michael arrives there. She questions him as though she were holding interrogatory precedings at a police station. She thinks that the Tuohys and Miss Sue are using Michael to benefit Ole Miss, their alma mater.
    Michael runs away before the interview is over, and goes to find his birth mother. The leader of the tough guys welcomes him back to Hurt Village, offers him a beer, and insinuates that Michael has had sexual relations with Leigh Anne or her daughter. This rouses Michael's protective instincts, as the gang leader threatens to go after the two ladies himself. Michael shoves him into a wall, knocking his gun aside. After thinking and questioning Leigh Ann on the matter, Michael realizes that the Tuohys are now his family, and tells Granger that that's the reason he has chosen Ole Miss.
  • Serius korang harus tengok movie ni. Macam mana keluarga Sean Tuohys terima Michael dengan baik dan kerana keluarga ni jugalah Michael berjaya. Worait gua tak pandai nak story mori tapi yang wa tau this movies is the best selain cerita Wolverine huhuhu

Sebenarnya...rindu :(


Kak Rahimah dan suami. Dah kurus sekarang..sakit agaknya.


Abang Mubin tukang buat rumah selain Arwah Tok Lang Mat. Nampak uzur


Dari kiri Mat Chin, Lah Grong, Pak Cik Daud, menantu arwah Tok Puan & Pak Teh Mat.

Tempat jatuh kepala lutut luka lagi dok ingat bila nampak parut inikan pula tempat membesar, menghabiskan zaman remaja, tempat buat onar. Ya deep deep dalam hati rindu sangat kampung halamanku. Rindu sangat dengan warga-warganya. Warga yang masa kutinggalkan kampung semuanya masih sihat, segar bugar tapi sekarang sudah dimamah usia. Ada yang telah pergi tak kembali , ada yang hanya menunggu masa untuk dipanggil pulang. Generasi baru yang mendiami kampung sudah tidak ku kenali. Kalau sebut anak sipolan itu si polan ini mungkin minda boleh mengingat kembali. Rakan sebaya ramai yang meninggalkan kampung kerana tuntutan tugas demi sesuap nasi. Kampung hanya meriah pada musim aidilfitri rasanya, kerana tika itu anak-anak desa pulang ke kampung halaman. Ini adalah tradisi kan hari raya sambutan harus dikampung baru terasa nikmat hari raya. 

Rindu yang tidak dapat diceritakan di gambarkan. Pada yang telah pergi hanya doa yang dapat dihadiahkan. Pada yang masih ada moga kita dapat bersua juga nanti, InshaAllah. Kerana rindu yang sarat dapat tengok kampung dalam google street view pun jadilah. Dapat juga tengok tapak rumah lama. Jadilah. Dapat juga tengok rumah2 jiran tetangga, rakan taulan. :). 

Kampung pun sudah banyak berubah. Bukit Meriam yang dulu kehijauan la ni dah kena tarah sampai botak. Rumah-rumah baru pun dah banyak sampai tertanya ni rumah sapa pulak. Pokok sawa depan rumah arwah Pak Wan pun dah kena tebang. Dulu nak tangkap pepatung , cari lidi penyapu, colek sikit sarang labah-labah lepas tu ambik getah saya...cet kat sayap pepatung dapat lah. Berjasa pokok sawa arwah Pak Wan tu. Arwah Pak Wan dah meninggal dalam kemalangan dekat dengan rumah dia juga. Pak Wan is garang but baik hati. Alfatihah untuk Pak Wan.

Rumah arwah Tok Hassan pun dah runtuh tinggai tapak. Yang ada hanya sisa tangga batu ja. Bila yang menjadi ibu rumah dah tak dak, anak-anak pula dah ada kehidupan sendiri maka rumah pusaka terbiar reput, usang di mamah anai-anai. Sayang sebab sudah tentu rumah pusaka menyimpan banyak rahsia dan kenangan. Tapi apa boleh buat sebab kampung hanya dijadikan tempat menghabiskan usia pencen :)). Selalu bersembang dengan Pak Atan, tak perlu kita ada rumah besar alam, kerana lumrah alam, anak-anak akan keluar dari rumah mencari dan membina kehidupan mereka sendiri.Rumah sebesar stadium tapi akhirnya hanya tinggal 2 penghuni kemudian 1 kemudian tak dak penghuni nak buat apa. 

Tapak rumah saya pun dah tinggal dinding batu sikit ja. Tiba-tiba rasa nak balik buat rumah di sana. Ehh rumah rehat. Boleh la time raya balik raya disana dan tunjuk tradisi beratur collect duit raya lepas solat raya. Anak-anak tak berpeluang lagi rasa macam tu. Tapi bila??

Sebenarnya saya rindu pada Kampung Bukit Meriam dan warganya yang pernah menghiasi hidup saya dulu....:(

Wednesday, 8 October 2014

Confirm


Confirm. En Atan akan report duty pada 20 Oktober 2014 ini di Seri Malaysia Taiping. Sob sob sob tinggallah kami sementara di sini. Puas macam-macam benda dok menari dalam kepala ni. Dengan anak-anak nak sekolah. Semua bendalah nak kena fikir. Tak pa abaikan semua tu la ni kita fikir pasal nak hidup di Taiping tu hihihi.

Thursday, 2 October 2014

Minyak naik

Oklah minyak naik lagi 2 kupang. Jadi harga petrol RM 2.30 untuk seliter. Ok maintain pakai kereta kebal haha.
Bukan nak story pasai harga petrol. Yang naik sudah pun naik. Kita menjerit bersorak tak ada nya orang di Putrajaya sana nun nak heran. Lakukan perubahan pada PRU14 nanti.

En.Atan tak lama lagi akan berkerja di Taiping. Tinggallah kami anak beranak disini. Tapi 5 bulan saja kami disini. Lepas ni kami pun ikut dia. 

Hijrah itu pengorbanan...hijrah itu perjuangan.....

Kami terima ini sebagai satu semangat sebagai satu "hadiah" dari yang MAHA ESA. DIA yang hantar dan hadiahkan rezeki kepada kami. 

Semoga dan InshaAllah hidup dan kehidupan kami sekeluarga akan bertambah makmur.


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